The Long Weekend

We had a pretty quiet Memorial Day weekend. Saturday, we did get ourselves dressed and went up to Oklahoma to the Winstar.....gambling place, ya know. We always have a certain amount of money that we can play with and we go very seldom, but find it fun every now and then. The amount this time was $30.00 each. The intention is not to WIN a bunch of money rather than to see how long you can make your money last. We split off and go venturing to find that one machine that looks fun. I like to try and find a new one.....they are like video games and it seems the less I know what I am doing the better it is. It is more than just making three symbols match with every spin. Sometimes, I won't even know what caused free spins to happen or a big pay off, but that is part of the fun of it to me. I know there is no rhyme or reason to it.....it is all in just how the machines are calibrated or whatever. Our favorite ones are the penny machines....so you can see how we can actually play a pretty long time on $30.00. We were there for hours, checking in on each other every now and then. Wayne was up $30.00 and I was down to my last $10.00, but we compared notes and then went on way again. There is no alcohol at this casino so we don't have to worry about drunks, but the one downfall is THE SMOKING!!! I try real hard to not get next to someone who is smoking and have got up and moved when it got too much for me a few times, but all in all most of the people are nice and always get as excited as you do when your machine is paying off. I have even had my neighbor sitting beside me tell me what I needed to do, cause the machine would be waiting for me to tell it a command, but I would have no clue.....FUN!! When we went to cash out we had been there about 4 hours and came out with $45.00. Wayne was the one that kept replenishing his money, he even gave me $20.00 more to play with, so all in all we left with $15.00 less than what we went in there with, which is the goal......GO have fun. With the weather being so unaccommodating it was a perfect place to spend some time. They serve cold drinks, water or a nice cup of coffee....all you want. I really did enjoy it! The rest of the weekend consisted of sitting and watching TV. We had a few movies to sit through and I did get Wayne up, I think once to go for a quick walk when the sun peeped out for just a few minutes. We did a little cook out for just him and me. We had luscious Turkey sausage and no fat wienies......which were really good. Inside I made corn on the cob, baked beans and store bought potato salad. We really did enjoy it and it wasn't real bad for us either....BONUS!!! A quick update on Wayne....his blood pressure was 107 over 69 his last reading....and to think they wanted to put him on medication. Ya know what? That Doctor would have actually thought that it was that medicine that caused his blood pressure to come down, when in reality it probably was nothing but getting the dentist thing over with and not being so paranoid about what the Dr. had told him. He has lost some weight....which burns me up. He has lost around 8lbs in just these couple of weeks and I try sooooo hard to lose and I have lost ZERO!!!It just ain't fair!!! I am glad to see he is doing better. He isn't ready for a SPEEDO, that's for sure , but then I'm never going to have a BIKINI on this old body either. Anywho.....that's all I've got for today. Till next time

SCHOOL DAZE

ONCE AGAIN IT IS TIME,

TO WRITE A POEM AND MAKE IT RHYME;

TODAY, I THINK THAT IT WILL BE,

ABOUT THE GIRL THAT ONCE WAS ME;

BELL BOTTOM PANTS AND LONG STRAIGHT HAIR,

OF POLITICS, I DID NOT CARE;

TO GO TO SCHOOL WAS MY ONLY JOB,

WITH ALL MY YOUTH AND TIME TO ROB;

I WASN'T HIPPIE NOR COWBOY,

TO PLAY CHAMELEON WAS MY JOY;

I WASN'T IN A CERTAIN CLICK,

CHEERLEADER NOR GEEK KINDA CHICK;

KNEW MOST THOSE KIDS SINCE GRAMMAR SCHOOL,

BUT HIGH SCHOOL SEEMED TO CHANGE THE RULE;

OH, THEY'D STILL SMILE AND GIVE A WAVE,

THEIR SOCIAL CLIMBER SELVES TO SAVE;

BUT WE ALL KNEW JUST WHAT THEY THOUGHT,

THEIR STATUS AT THE SCHOOL WAS BOUGHT;

I DID NOT WORRY, I DID NOT CARE,

MY FRIENDS AND ME, OUR LIVES DID SHARE;

WE WERE SO CLOSE AND HAD SUCH FUN,

I MISS THOSE DAYS, BUT THOSE DAYS ARE DONE;

SO MANY YEARS AGO IT'S BEEN,

AN ENTIRE LIFETIME'S PASSED SINCE THEN;

A REUNION'S PLANNED, IT'S ON IT'S WAY,

WHO WILL BE THERE ON THAT DAY?

Got Milk?

Today is going to be the THIRD trip to Wally World this week. I went Monday, but had not made out a grocery list. I no sooner was driving away when I thought OH NO!!! DOG FOOD....that was one of the main things I needed to get ..... DANG IT!!!. I hate it when I do that.....especially when I get stuff we really didn't even need. I thought Oh well, there is enough dog food for one more day so I'll just have to run back tomorrow. All that afternoon I jotted down things....along with dog food, that I was gonna need to get. I was dashing out the door when I thought ???? do we need milk? I opened the fridge to check and was so glad I did cause we were just about out. I already had my purse hanging on my arm with my much needed list in it....so I just said to myself....I can remember milk. I was getting cereal so to remember I would associate the milk with the cereal.....perfect, how could I forget. I pulled out my list as I was getting a basket and made my way once again down the isles. I started over at the dog food which is on the other side of the store.....well, as you know the makeup and clothes and tons of other things are between the dog food isle and the food area......by the time I had made it over to the food my memory was no longer than my list. I went over it several times....thinking....Ok, I got everything. I happily checked out and left. It wasn't until I was putting the things away that I opened the fridge and immediately knew....I FORGOT THE FREAKING MILK!!!!!! So hence, my 3rd trip. This time I only intend to pick up that one item....surely if I walk straight back to the dairy isle and don't get side tracked looking at any thing else I can make it back home with some milk. I think they might as well put me on their pay roll....heee heee.....I am sooooo crazy! Till next time.

Ramblings

Today, I am really at a loss.....don't know what to write about. I have lots of things running around in the old pea, but can't seem to catch just one and put it on paper. I am sooo ready to go on vacation. We still lack about 3 weeks before TAKE OFF!!! The anticipation is about to get the best of me. I feel so anxious.....like you feel when you know something is fixen to happen, but it just won't hurry and get here. The sad thing is, the time to go seems to be dragging, but I know once it is upon us it will be over in a flash....why is that? I know Wayne is feeling the same way....probably amplified by 100. He is so excited. This will be our first plane trip, together. He is sooooo in need of a vacation. All this medical stuff and the quiting smoking has just about done his nerves in. He is doing so much better on his blood pressure readings....staying around 120 over 80 and that's just kinda averaging. He is doing well on his new eating habits, but is starting to balk a little about the evening walk......thinking he gets enough exercise at work. I don't know, but I think I am already growing weary of his upkeep. He just seems so unappreciative of my efforts and even acts like I am enforcing these things on him out of meanness......much like a child you are telling to do something for their own good, but they don't want to. I know we each play an important part in each others life. My life would be so much harder without him in it. I wonder if he ever thinks about what his life would be like without me in it. These are things you have to ponder cause the reality is there and it is inevitable that one of us will be left without the other. I think about that.....does he? Till next time.

Birthday Bashing

Wayne had a terrific birthday.......good for him. I just hope he remembers the nice things done for him when it comes MY BIRTHDAY. I hate that most of the men, in my life anyway, have no responsibility in the gift giving department. Wayne has never had to put one thought in any birthday present for anybody nor Christmas present either. I know that most of that is my own fault. I am the one that never requested his presence at our children's birthday party's. I don't know why I thought it not the man thing to do....YES I DO!!!!, because I was programed to believe that any dealings of the giving sort or of showing emotions was for women. I have tried for years to rectify this, but to no avail.......he not only can't buy someone a present he doesn't even want to. He hates having to put thought into anything for someone else. I don't like being the only one responsible for all the GIVING!!!! I admit, I do like getting presents for people.....I always get more joy from the giving than the receiving. Maybe, I just want something to gripe about, but what is it about men that make them believe they shouldn't have to worry with such things. I have always told him that it is the thought that counts and not really the present, well that came back to bite me in the butt also. He would let Christmas or my birthday pass and tell me.....he THOUGHT about getting me this or that and this was suppose to give him some brownie points....I DON'T THINK SO!!! He has always copped out, with one excuse or another....one big one being....I have to work, when am I going to have time to go shopping or I don't know what to get anybody. You would think after 30 plus years of being married to me he might have some inkling as to some things I like. I always try to make the birthday person feel like it is their special day....cause it is. I just wish once he would want that in return for me too. Oh, he will be the first to say happy birthday, but that is usually the extent of it. He always expects me to tell him what to get and if I don't request anything that's exactly what I get.....NOTHING!!! This way of thinking goes for ALL days requiring a gift or card, such as Mother's day or Father's day or any of the other days needing a thought for someone else. Mother's day I was told....YOUR Not My Mother. He is so right, but I am THE Mother of HIS children, shouldn't I be honored by him for that? I was the one in the kitchen baking HIS Mother a cake for Mother's day, he saw nothing wrong with that at all and there wasn't anything wrong with me thinking of my Mother in Law on Mother's day, but what energies did he use in his gift of thought for his Mother? I went thru years of doing all the Christmas present buying and never thought a thing about it, but as I have gotten older and it is just him and me these things way on my mind. If I should leave this world before him, it will be strictly on him then to think of others on these special days. We all have to take responsibility ourselves for being loving and caring and GIVING people. What will he say then....your Mother always did all that, I don't know how???? That will surely make someone feel special...huh? When I think of him on this earth alone...what will become of him? Is it all just a roll he plays cause he knows he can and in my demise he will be a completely different person....one who can cook for himself and clean for himself and last but not least GIVE of himself to others....I sure do hope so cause it will be a lonely existence if he chooses to remain so self involved and not show the love he has for others in his actions. What's the old saying....Actions speak louder than words. Till next time.

Party Pooper

I had a very looonnnnggggg night. We were up later than usual watching a movie and went to bed late. I took a hot shower, but did not take my usual Advil.....now, I don't know if that had anything to do with it, but I COULD NOT go to sleep. I think it was already 10:30 when we turned out the lights, which is about an hour later than I usually go to sleep, I know, I'm starting to be one of those people that go to bed as soon as the sun goes down.....I never would have thunk it. I was still tossing and turning at 12:30......I got up and went and took a sleeping aid pain pill, it did the trick, but now I feel drug out this morning. Anyway, today we were going over to have lunch with Wayne......it's his BIRTHDAY today. He turned 52 and we are gonna go celebrate with him. I fear I'm not going to be a very joyful person to be around....I just HATE that....I wanted to have fun and enjoy the day with him. He has done so well this week on his new eating habits and our walk every afternoon. Believe it or not, he even suggested walking to Walmart yesterday cause it was our walking time , but we needed to go pick up 1 or 2 things, so hence 2 birds with 1 stone. His blood pressure has been so much better....like 128 over 79. It was 146 over 95. It went higher than that while he was doing the Dentist and Doctor thing. He gets to splurge today.....lunch and dinner. He gets to pick the place for lunch and then his dinner is part of his Birthday present, Pork Chops, Rice, and gravy.....his all time favorite. I told with all the stuff he was getting there would be NO cake this year. He seemed fine with that....he thinks I am starving him to death cause he only got 3 chili dogs the other night. I know that sounds terrible, but this guy could eat 5 easily. The ones I fixed were with Fat Free wienies, lean chili and so on....not bad at all, low in fat and sodium. Guess I better close and start getting myself ready before I fall asleep on my keyboard.....till next time.

Up On My Game

Well, believe it or not I got up this morning and have no ill effects from yesterdays aerobatics. I can't believe it.....I just knew I wasn't going to be able to stand erect or get my legs to function. I looked out and admired my handy work.....ahhhh! I love clean and neat. No hair to content with on the patio, so going out on it to feed Gus wasn't torturous to me. Now, let me tell ya, all this helping Wayne with his diet has really kicked me into high gear......I so want to lose some weight....I'm not even going to put a number to it, just SOME WEIGHT. I had a horrifying ordeal the other day. I am trying to start gathering the essentials I'm gonna need for our vacation. We are headed for the Florida Keys and the mainstay is naturally a bathing suit....hence my HORRIFYING ordeal. OH MY GAWD!!! What has happened to my body??? I went thru all my suits, starting with a new one I just got last year. It is soooo pretty and a good name brand, so it is made well, but GOOD GRIEF!!!!! I have as much pooch out the back of it as I do the front.....ya know, the skin that pooches out when you put something tight on your body. This suit has a very pretty back on it with the straps crossing, but every place the suit is there's a big POOCH of skin popping out, YUK!!! I am one of those women with BACK FAT!!! There I have said it....WHY, Why would you gain weight THERE???? If I could just have all that Lipoed out and injected in the bosom area I could be pretty voluptuous. I would still need it all pulled up tight tho.....things are a hanging. Wayne and I walk further last night than previously and yesterday I ate VERY LITTLE. Surely I can get some of this weight off in the next few weeks before we leave. Even with some weight loss I know I am going to have to stay with a tank top suit. All my bulge is in my middle and BACK of course I'm gonna wear one that holds as much of it in as possible. I HATE the way I gain weight....all right in my midriff. Oh Well, I guess it could be worse.... like I said, I would hate to see what I would look like if I didn't do the things I do. I still have painting to do, clothes to wash, floors to vacuum, and a multitude of other things....I better get going....till next time