Flashes Of Heat Amongst The Fun Called Life

This is probably going to be short and sweet, but here goes. I must say, seems life has gone into extra fast mode these days. I am busy with the ever challenge to make it thru this menopause status that's likes to consume me every now and then. I have had some GREAT nights, where I slept the whole night thru with no awakenings to a sweaty body, but then just when I think I may be making to the end of this saga in my life, it starts up again. The last two nights have just been horrific. I know I must have woke up at least 5 times to that inner heat that makes me shed the covers. I pull my top up to my chin allowing as much of the cool air to hit my body and make the furnace within me turn off. What the heck IS THAT????? Of all the weird things for a body to do.....why would it heat up like that? I never was much of a sweater. I could run and be out in the heat and never have a bead of sweat run down my face, but now, with no physical activity I can have it pouring off of me. Weird.....really weird. I have panic attacks of wearing something that is too warm for those heated moments. I never know when they shall hit so I have to prepare and make ready for them. Winter is really gonna pose a problem for me cause I love to wear sweaters and sweat shirts, but the thought of having a big WARM thing on me like that makes me sweat just thinking about it.

Now, that I am closer to Traci we have been walking again....I sure do love it. I started a Yoga routine with her the other day.....boy, am I sore over it. We are gonna do it every other day......so today is the day. I hope it will work some of the soreness out of me.

We have down sized once again to a small 2 bedroom house. This has been quite a task, trying to make room for all the things that we acquired while we were in the 3 bedroom very roomy house. Our bedroom furniture is HUGE and does not fit into the small bedroom here. We have just our bed and the two night stands at the end of it to sit our TV on and that is it.....room totally filled. It truly is a BED room. The other two pieces of the set is in the other bedroom along with our office stuff....computer desks and book shelves. Yep, we are wall to wall. It is amazing how much stuff you accumulate and seems the more room you have the more you need. I like this down sizing and the cleansing of our junk, makes the things you keep seem new and special. I love this little space. It has so much charm and is filled with windows allowing so much of the outside in.

The setting is country....which I love. We wake to roosters crowing. I have seen deer on several occasions. We have seen the signs of wild hogs and have heard coyotes howling into the night.....even heard a owl hooting one morning. The sounds and sights of the wildlife are wonderful...we really do love it!

That's it for today....Trace will be flagging me over to start our Yoga. We are taking the kids to downtown Denton to find some the historical places and learn of the things that took place there......FUN! Till next time.

The Writer In Me

Oh My Gosh!!!! I have been gone for so long I don't even know where to begin. We are residing at a new address and are really enjoying it. I think I will just start anew for too much time has passed to start from there.

I missed my writing,
I really did;
My ideas and thoughts,
whirl in my head;
So many topics, so much to say,
to unburden my heart and brighten my day;
I almost felt postal,
no outlet I found;
I want to write,
be it light hearted or profound;
The ailments of my menopause,
I can handle with quite ease;
as long as I can express myself,
in my writing, if you please;
I am back with a vengence,
hope you readers will see;
this menopausel women,
loves the writer, within me;

Hello to everyone, know that Wayne and I are well and living a fun and fullfilling life....Till next time.

TGIF

I am so glad today is Friday.......the good ole weekend, here again. Wayne and I both seem to be pooped out. I slept till 8:00 this morning, which is highly unusual. I must admit I did a whole lotta nothin yesterday, but I just can't seem to get rested. I have been wanting Wayne to take another week of vacation.......I know he could really use the time off and I would enjoy him being home.

We went over to Traci's last night for grandson #3's birthday....that's our Kannon, three years old....doesn't seem like we have had him for 3 years already.

We stayed till a little after 8:00 and it was almost bedtime by the time we got home.......of course, Wayne napped in his chair as soon as he sat down. He was already heading for the bedroom by 9:30. He climbed right in and was OUT before I could even get in there. I had made a call to my cousin and talked with her for about 15 minutes before making my way in there. I had actually planned to watch a little more TV, just till I got drowsy, so I had turned it on before making my call....Just to find it off when I got in there. He has this thing about the TV going in the bedroom, Now, he can fall asleep in front of the TV in living room with no problem, but let me want to watch TV in the bedroom and he starts asking me to turn it down and acts like he can't get to sleep with it on.....go figure.

Not much else to talk about, maybe the weekend will bring some new exciting events that I can share with you. So I'll say, Till next time.

Man

A man with menopause,

Oh, give me a break;

Not one, of the many symptoms,

could he take;

Think of all the things,

A woman goes thru;

starting with those PERIODS,

and giving Life anew;

I have often said,

if man should have a child;

There would be, just that one,

and it would grow up WILD;

A man to HAVE and rear a child,

To this, I have my doubt;

They have no clue to what it takes,

or what it's all about;

The Cramps, the pain of giving birth,

Pains, they could not endure;

There would be no procreation,

their sex drive it would cure;

That's the thing with most men,

couldn't make it to menopause;

Here lies poor Joe, he died ya know,

His FIRST period, was the cause.

Rainy Day

I sit and drink my coffee,

I listen to the thunder;

The things I planned to do today,

may have to go asunder;

In pouring rain, is not the time,

you want to go outdoors;

All the mess that it will cause,

those wet and muddy floors;

Now, let me see, what can I do,

with time, to spend inside;

I'll wash the clothes and tidy up,

don't want to, I'll confide;

Clothes, they are a washing,

The bed, I've got it made;

Still want to do the things outside,

In bed, I wish I'd stayed;

I may just have to take the chance,

of getting myself soaked;

A little rain, never hurt no one,

No one has ever croaked;

I'll get up and I'll get dressed,

The rain, I hope, will stop soon;

If I get drenched, Oh, so what,

I'll be the creature from the black lagoon;

So, till next time, as I always say,

New things, will be on my mind;

I'll express them to you,

as best I can, with words, I like to find.

Hot Flashes And Stuff

Here we are, at Friday again. Our much needed rain must have went else where.....the sun seems to be out and bright this morning. I have stayed pretty much house bound the last couple of days. All the moving over last weekend I think finally caught up with me and I just seem to want to lax out on the couch. I did how ever get both my bathrooms cleaned yesterday and all laundry caught up the day before that. Trace and I have a Wally's trip planned for today.

I am still feeling a little drug out this morning. My nights of late are filled with countless awakenings and hot flashes that seem to be quite intense right now. I don't know if my hormones are out of whack or just what the problem is, but I get so sick of having sweat running down between and underneath my boobies....I know that sounds disgusting.....and IT IS! I will awake from a a very deep sleep, just to find that my body feels as if I just ran a 20 mile marathon.....sweat wise, that is. When does this stop???? It has been YEARS now......can't it just STOP!

I really looked forward to the time of no periods, the freedom, I thought I would have, but this all encompassing take over of my body at will is really worse than a monthly visit from the yoo hoo man. At least with it, it came pretty regularly and was gone in just a few days. My one big question is WHY do they have to come thru the night????, can't we get a reprieve for just 7 to 8 little hours. I have them thru the day also, but there is just something about night time that makes things seem so much more intense.

I went right to sleep, but just about an hour later, my eyes popped open, for no apparent reason. I fell back asleep and again, another hour had passed and there I lay with eyes open. I finally got up and took a pm pain reliever and the next thing I knew Wayne was getting up to go to work. That's the kind of sleep I like.....eyes shut and the next thing you know, IT'S MORNING!

I must tell you that I am quite the head case about pills.....I don't like them and usually refuse to take any, be it for HOT FLASHES or whatever these mounting years bring my way. I truly believe, less is more. The less pills I take the better I think I feel. There are just too many side effects to most medication. While trying to get rid of one symptom the pill brings on several worse side effects....why would anyone choose to do that? I am just making it thru, on my own accord. I'm not saying it's easy, but I don't think it would be any easier if I popped a pill. I did take a sleep aid and I take a pain reliever when needed, but all those other remedies for menopause symptoms, I feel are just hog wash......that may be why they would do no good for me. I believe the mind plays the biggest part in our health issues. If you believe something is going to help you, then it is more likely to. My lack of trust and believability in the ever mounting drugs Dr's want to give us, is probably why none will ever help me. You will find that I AM a head case about a lot of things. Till next time.

Grubby Old Woman

I looked in the mirror,

what did I see;

A grubby old woman,

starring back at me;

Hair all a mess,

bags under the eyes;

A haggard old woman,

I tell you no lies;

Who is this old crone,

looking ran over by a train;

I stare in her eyes,

do I know her name;

She is quite familiar,

tho, distorted and weird;

Someone, who's close to me,

OH NO!!!, I feared;

Maybe, some water,

to put on her face;

Will lessen the swelling,

and brighten her case;

Is Halloween near,

for it must be;

I'm scared to death,

for I know it's ME;